Blood Spreads

staining the hand that feeds
unacknowledged by the donor who
gives night mares in heat to me
taking the moist slice as though it didn’t hurt
Healing Hands splatter blood
hits my arms face hair
soaks in to stain my shirt
how much blood can she spare?
flushing the old hurts that festered unseen for so long
trying to heal what was ignored
Two a day draw blood that hid but
17 x 2/day works just as well
watch the woman normally a giant
so small down below
hands on hips trying to do right for her daughter
still three after thirty
Feeling the weight of age that her mother wishes to take for herself,
she is thousands of years old.
aged prematurely by cares not her own
taken on because she saw the need.


I wonder
is she me in years to come?
will I feel old too soon and lose my youth
who will care for her daughter
when she is dried out from
giving her love to all who need
I hope to age fast

To Help Protect Your Privacy

Shut every window and door
flip latches, draw curtains
make sure no one is near
disconnect the webcam
turn the mirror away
Change quick
don’t pause or hesitate
throw on anything
hide the body
baggy and loose
Walk with head down
face closed off
hood up
move faster someone’s coming by
don’t look
wonder why you are afraid

Veto Power

We all know what it means to have veto power – its something referenced in sitcoms, discussed in overly serious political settings, and reverted to when ‘because I said so’ needs a leg to stand on.

When it comes to being in a relationship , sometimes having the ability to call off a course of action really matters. This is especially true when one person is signing their life away by agreeing to be at the beck and call of the US government. For myself and Justin, the agreement was simple; both of us had veto powers when it came to contracts with the government. Okay, contracts in general that impact the other person.

Thankfully, there was never an instance in which veto powers were required or called into play. After the first four year contract with the Marine Corps, we both were ready to be done and move home.